Monthly Archives: September 2011

Juno transit conjunct Mars

December 6th, 2006… km 0… my first official date with the most beautiful guy I ever dated :D … for no particular reason… the only guy for which I liked to cook :D  there were times when life was simple and good enough… even if my heart was still a bit damaged from the Erasmus time… I don’t know, perhaps I’ll have the chance to remember those times. only the good ones…

Update: well… actually no, I’m lying. The most beautiful guy I dated was Nene ;)) And by continuing to write without thinking, on the hope that I’ll feel the urge to delete it tomorrow morning, the most beautiful guy I know, that I never dated, is Rudd :P

Nevertheless, I think everyone knows that sheer beauty will never keep you tight and warm at night… also, for no particular reason:

Crazy stupid love

I saw a movie last night with my girl colleagues and the title of the post bellow was my assigned seat.

I said that I’m going to sleep because my mind was very blurry and that I needed “the night” to clarify my future path. Or, at least, what it is that I should do to have a smoother path… it brought me some revealing dreams, yet, I don’t know how could I apply them into this real life… so, I have to wait some more.

Anyway, the part of the movie that made me think about my life was when “the girl” was hopping that she will be proposed to marriage but instead her boyfriend proposed her… a better job!, motivating that he hasn’t thought about her as a potential wife and he needs time to think about marriage. I actually like this type of men, because they show maturity and reliability.

Marriage should be indeed a thing to have many sleepless nights reflecting about it in order to know that you’ve made the right decision for you. And that the other person is aware of all her options and that the highest number of people around you gets happy from this. Really?

When I started working at this new place (I’ll still call it new until I’ll have there more than 1&1/2 years), in the first day I met a girl. It was something about her that attracted me (in the good straight way :D ) as if she will have some future lessons for me. I guess I took her as my bigger sister, when I saw her with that blue sweater passing back and forth my desk not knowing who she is, until I dared to introduce myself. Some weeks after, I found out she is married. Cool! I have a bigger sister that could give me some hints about marriage :D Then, a couple of months after, I found out she is pregnant… that because it was starting to become visible.

Next week, from what I heard, she will enter into pre-maternity leave so I won’t be seeing her again. Just like Stefania from Wipro… just like Anca from Paralela 45. They both went outside of my path and I never had the chance to see them again after that…

I don’t know why I wrote this, but marriage and having a baby it’s something that I’m kinda starting to become inpatient to discover… yet I have so many doubts about whether or not I’ll be a good wife or/and a good mother. For the past 2-3 years I keep noticing infants and children with their parents all around me, and, each time I hear a kid crying, I spend hours thinking what made him/her cry and what caused that parent to yell at him/her instead of calming him/her down.

I do happen to see very bright infants also, in the park or in the bus or subway, that even if they cannot speak yet, the way they move their eyes around and the way they move their little hands, makes me think that there is a fascinating world living inside them, a world that they are trying to discover outside of them. Not just once, a stranger baby made me cry of happiness after less than 10 seconds spent in his presence. Not just once, I had them come to me, trying to discover me at the end of those sweet little fingers.

I know, a baby is something that requires an enormous amount of patience and responsibility, that needs an enormous amount of things (and money) to grow up healthy and happy… but the way they’re giving you tears of happiness is priceless.

Knowing that you accept those overtime hours to give your future kids a better start than the one you had is truly motivating… yet, I believe this isn’t the right way to start preparing yourself for it… no! There should be a better way and I promise that I will dedicate my time, in the privacy of my own home, to find it!

O 10

When there are too many things going in and out your mind and too many vibes wandering around your body, that you cannot express them, you just… don’t.

Hopping that tomorrow, after a long good (dreamless) sleep they will become clearer. Even if I cannot remember ever having a sleep without dreams… and dreams makes them even more fussy.

Good night!

Why am I not a Producer… yet… in 6 steps

Or a Movie Director for that matter… or anything multimedia producing like… I mean, why on Earth (to use an expression I find cute) I’m not using my Master’s studies?

1. I don’t have the necessary hardware/software. I mean a computer capable to process movies and a licence of a software reliable enough to do it.

2. I don’t have the patience to actually do it and to not become angry by every little thing that goes wrong in the process.. of doing it.

3. I don’t have the drive… as in, the higher purpose for doing it.

4. because I love to procrastinate, to make imaginary monsters real, to fight them over and then, to feel proud about it. It is still funny though… some weeks ago I had a wireless connection that didn’t work. Now I have 2 wireless connections that do not work… simply because I’m too lazy to move my but to the other room to reset that damn router once in a while…

5. because I seem to like more to write on my blog… in my own English.

My current properties

As in Level 55 in Farmville…

Am I dead yet? :D

Ok. so I finally went to Rome. And not in 2013 as planned, but in 2011. And I came back from Rome.

And making a small recap of the 3 quarters of the year 2011, as “the year with no expectations” I may say that I’m proud of myself for the followings:

- I have another almost 8 months of happily working experience in Finance & Accounting and 4 diplomas over my desk (and counting) to acknowledge that.

- I had 2 more shows of poetry: “Cine mai trece pe drum I” and “Cine mai trece pe drum II” (when we had Catalin to film us and he has done the best recording from all the shows I had, that were filmed).

- I have been in 2 3 new countries and spent each 3 days in their capitals: Paris/France in June and Rome/Italy and Vatican in September (photos waiting to be processed and posted on Flickr);

- I have written (compilated) 2 articles for the company’s inside magazine, one for the issue of May, “How necessary changes are in one’s life?!”  and one for September, waiting to be published, “Seeing theatre acting as a part of a project”.

- I have started a new acting course and I’m very happy about that, because I have there 4 boys that I like find interesting (from which, 3 I met last year on my birthday ;) ) and other beautiful new people just waiting to be discovered.

- I saw and took pictures in 2 more parks in Bucharest: Tei and Carol I (where I went bike ridding).

- I bought myself new roller skates.

- I had my first recording at home, of a poetry interpretation, that has until now 42 votes on /fain. And I had in mind another poetry, to be recorded in front of the Colosseum, on the 23rd, but it didn’t come out quite as I expected… it seems that my brother filming intimidates me…

Anyway, that’s about it, thanks for reading me!.. and please note that I’m only trying to be responsible. Cute and funny comes naturally.

I cannot see over you

And this is literally killing me, for the moment… energetically speaking I feel so trapped between the need to express what I want and what I feel and the moral obligations toward letting other people understand and choose what they want and to ask for what they need… and to see if I could have something from what they need. [...]

Nun Deutsch…

Azi dimineata mi-a venit ideea sa ma inscriu la un nou modul de germana la Goethe, pentru sesiunea de toamna. Ma gandesc ca poate prind un B2 sau chiar un C1, daca am inspiratie, energie si scap de timiditate, in ziua testarii.

Am vazut pe site ca pentru cursantii vechi inscrierile se fac intre 26 si 29 septembrie… oricum, s-ar putea sa fac o vizita luni pe acolo sa vad exact cum sta treaba si cat ar costa. Accept si sponsorizari, avand in vedere ca si luna asta salariul meu se duce pe concediul de 3 zile in Roma… si, partial, pe modulul de avansati de actorie. Plus ca am mai avut o revelatie: cheltui in jur de 600 lei pe luna + bonurile de masa, exclusiv pe mancare… n-ar fi mai bine sa nu mai mancam noi deloc??!

Revenind, am facut testul de pe site, asa de dimineata, in timpul cafelutei si cu muzica pe fundal, si prima oara mi-au iesit 19 din 30. Lame, intr-adevar. Apoi m-am ambalat la o sesiune de facut permutari din raspunsuri si am sucit si am invartit acel test cu intentia de a scoate 30 din 30:

1. Ich habe keine Lust, bei dieser Hitze durch die Stadt zu laufen. Bleiben wir doch hier!

2. Heute kann ich nicht kommen, weil ich viel zu tun habe.

3. Hans hat bald Geburtstag. Haben Sie auch eine Einladung bekommen?

4. Hast Du jetzt ein anderes Auto? Das kenne ich ja noch nicht.

5. Viele Wohnungen auf dem Land sind nicht so bilig wie man denkt.

6.-10. Was Berufsanfänger wissen sollten: Holen Sie sich so viele Informationen über Ihre neue Firma wie möglich. Ziehen Sie sich am ersten Tag schick an.
Der erste Eindruck, den die anderen von Ihnen haben, ist wichtig. Kommen Sie nicht zu spät. Stellen Sie Ihren Wecker so, dass Sie nicht nur pünktlich in der Firma sind, sondern auch genügend Zeit haben, Ihr zukünftiges Büro zu finden.

11.-15. Was hat Ihnen Ihre Zahnärztin über Ihre Zähne erzählt? Sie wissen es nicht mehr ganz genau? Das ist ganz normal, aber nur dann, wenn das Gespräch mit Ihrer Ärztin schon länger als 24 Stunden zurückliegt.
Denn die Hälfte aller Informationen, die wir hören, werden nach einem Tag vergessen. Und nach 48 Stunden haben wir nur noch ein Viertel des Gesprächs im Kopf.

16. Du willst in Berlin arbeiten? Hast Du dich denn schon um eine Stelle bemüht?

17. Leider waren die Ferien schon zu Ende, sonst hätte ich mit den Kindern länger geblieben.

18. Je nach Qualität kosten die Jacken Euro 100.- bis Euro 210.-.

19. Trotz vieler Bemühungen des technischen Personals mussten die Fluggäste stundenlang warten.

20.  Die Universitätsgebäude sind zwar hässlich, hierfür ist aber das Studienangebot sehr vielfältig.

21. Bei dem neuen Autotyp ist technisch viel verbessert worden.

22. Der kleine Junge hatte lange Haare, weshalb ihn viele für ein Mädchen hielten.

23-27. Die Internationale Ledermesse in Offenbach verzeichnete am Wochenende einen befriedigenden  Anfang. Schon am Samstag habe es einen regen Besucherandrang gegeben, teilte die Messeleitung mit. Bei einigen Artikeln, wie etwa den Saisonwaren Koffer und Reisegepäck, sei der Besucherandrang sogar
sehr hoch gewesen.
Insgesamt zeigen 403 Aussteller, darunter über 100 Hersteller aus dem Ausland, ihre neuesten Kollektionen an Lederwaren. Bei den ausländischen Ausstellern stellt Indien mit 24 Firmen das stärkste Kontingent, gefolgt von Holland, Argentinien und Italien.

28. Auch Männer haben heute andere Erwartungen an die Vereinbarkeit von Familie und Beruf.

29. Der Herausforderung der modernen Technik muss man sich in jedem Beruf stellen.

30. Lange Arbeitszeiten bedürfen geplanter Pausen.

Dar am abandonat la timp (ca mi-e foame):

Resultat / Result
Sie haben 27 von 30 Aufgaben richtig gelöst.
Prima! Ihre Deutschkenntnisse sind schon fast perfekt.

The point

of writting only for myself.

Azi mi s-a intamplat unul din cele mai deprimante lucruri posibile: o femeie in metrou mi-a facut observatie sa tac, cand incercam sa-i spun un banc unei colege, pentru ca sa poata ea sa citeasca in liniste! Si nu m-a deranjat neaparat faptul ca mi-a spus, ci cum a facut-o… m-a durut pana in strafundul sufletului, pentru ca nici macar nu vorbeam tare, pentru ca eram intr-o stare atat de depresiva incat ma apuca plansul la orice atac… real sau imaginar… pentru ca mi s-a intamplat si mie sa fiu cateodata intr-o asemenea stare incat sa ma enerveze orice voce din jurul meu… dar ceea ce a facut ea mi s-a parut cu adevarat nesimtire, pentru ca eu n-am indraznit sa-i spun nimanui niciodata asa ceva. Daca aveam chef sa citesc (ceea ce nu mi s-a intamplat decat de cateva ori si nu aveam nicio problema cu zgomotul de fond) sau aveam chef sa compun o poezie sau un post de blog, pur si simplu imi luam jucariile si ma mutam eu discret mai incolo… dar asta-i viata… cateodata mai ai nevoie si de cate cineva care sa-ti puna punctul pe i… si sa-ti demonstreze ca scopul tau in viata este unul mult mai inalt decat a incerca sa distrezi lumea prin a spune bancuri in metrou… si nici macar nu vorbeam tare… asta pentru ca aveam o stare de imi venea sa plang la orice atac real sau imaginar.