1st hour – procrastinating about the fact that the adaptor from the package is for the british plugs. (Or american ones, I don’t know, never been to America)

2nd hour – negociating with my bro’ to go to buy 6 batteries.

3rd hour – first 5 minutes – receiving from “far above” the idea that I actually have 8 (almost) full batteries in my house… 4 from my electronic scales and 4 rechargable from my old Olympus photo camera.

3rd and 4th hours – watching my bro how is testing every piece of button and every piece of tune.

4th and on… who cares? I’m hungry and very sleepy. Good night!

I give you some excerpts from the book I’m reading now (the book that I bought on Friday night, from the Dalles Galeries), that I find very interesting and full of truth.

“[...] For example, if you’re asking someone to be quieter, try to develop a positive relationship with the person before asking or writing them with your request to make less noise. [...] – as in, you don’t have the right to ask someone something, anything that will be, if you didn’t give something that they want/need.

“You need to find a balance between creating too much stimulation, which causes anxiety, and too little stimulation, which results in boredom.”

“You need to use discrimination about when to push yourself to deal with stimulation and when to avoid being overwhelmed.”

“[...] In other words, when you sow a thought, you reap an action. When you repeat an action, you develop a habit. When you maintain a habit, you create a character.”

“Take changes step by step. For example, if you want to go to bed an hour earlier to obtain more sleep, try going to bed just five minutes earlier each night so that in a few weeks, you’ll reach your goal.” – on Thursday night I changed my alarm clock to wake me at 7:00 instead of 7:30. So, just waking-up half of hour earlier on Friday, with enough time to remember/analyse my dreams, I had a 22&1/2 hours-day of full awareness. Or I could blame this on the eclipse in my first house opposite my natal moon :D

“Make a resolution today that you will no longer remain in any environment in which there is no hope for you to be happy.”

“Once you become focused on establishing peace of mind, you won’t have to give others a piece of your mind.”

… and from the page 29 it really becomes truly captivating

“You may want to simply watch each thought as it arises. Each one is simply like a bus with a sign indicating a particular destination. As soon as you become aware of a thought, simply ask yourself if you want to go where that thought is taking you. [...] You always have a choice about whether to remain a passenger on any of the stressful buses that are passing through your mind. You can always choose to disembark at any time from a negative mental journey.” - I have discovered my “ability” to follow the trains of my thoughts around the age of 13… so I’m a HSP with some sort of inner-knowledge :)

And I’m starting to find this book quite empowering!

Is it really true that the subconscious realm is boundless? Is it really true that if you set your mind into something productive you instantly attract everything you need to make it real?

… epiphany? yes.

As highly creative and dreamy as I am I still don’t have enough imagination to wish for what this world/reality is truly able to give me.

How do you build /stimulate imagination? Is intelligence able to stimulate imagination or it goes only in the direction of confining it, by creating …imaginary (?!)… limits?

[...] it was 2:55 AM when she woke up… after you hit the ground and completely turned into a black cloud that vanished away in the next instant.

Looks like, somehow, she managed to continue the action from the other time you hunted her dreams. Truly satisfying . She can still feel the touch of your skin at the end of her fingertips. But, in the end, she didn’t raise a finger to try to help you, just stood there against the wall, in that open balcony, watching you going down, while you were shouting for help.

Truly satisfying. [...]

Over the present.
Past.
And future.

Judging by the fact that a month ago I dreamt about snowed red rose buds and I awoke feeling very strange, it seems that some dreams do come true! There are times when You Do arrive where you wanted, but very far away from where you’ve prepared yourself for.

Buun… acum sa trecem la chestii mai pamantesti: in timp ce mancam, mi-am dat seama ca n-am stiut niciodata sa pun problema in serios, in viitor, in legatura cu viata mea profesionala.

Ma refer la faptul ca, de cand ma stiu, ma concentram intotdeauna doar in sensul de a trece de un hop sau altul, gandindu-ma ca apoi imi va fi bine si voi putea sa exist, fericita: sa iau bacul cu nota mare; sa intru la facultate; sa prind camin bun; sa primesc bursa in Spania; sa ma angajez; sa intru la master; sa-mi gasesc un serviciu mai bun; sa termin masterul … sa ma angajez din nou… sa devin Team-Leader… sa joc prima oara intr-o piesa de teatru… sa ma angajez din nou… sa devin Team-Leader… deci da, am intrat intr-o bucla.

Acum voi lua ca ipoteza si ca “de la sine inteles”, notiunile de existenta si de fericire, nemaivazand viata doar in materie de hopuri de trecut, ci in materie de cum sa-mi gestionez cel mai eficient (si efectiv) resursele de care dispun. Asa deci si prin urmare, luand ca ipoteza faptul ca voi fi obligata sa exist pe acest Pamant, inca cel putin 50 de ani, ar trebui sa-mi pun problema in sensul de cum sa-mi fac acesti urmatori 50 de ani cat mai placuti, nu cat mai stresanti, obositori, nesanatosi, lupta(ciosi), nervosi, egoisti etc, iar hopurile, vor fi (fost) trecute si ele… de la Sine

PS. … si tu consumi pentru niste nimicuri? Let there be light! Dream big.

Tocmai am facut un test IQ

Si trebuie sa precizez ca mi s-a parut cam agresiv modul in care a intrat in viata mea (adica am dat search dupa numele meu pe google, am gasit asta si am fost foarte dezamagita de acea tiza a mea… sau orice alta persoana care ar fi dorit sa apara numele pe care il folosesc si eu, in dreptul acelui rezultat). Buun. Dupa ce m-am calmat, am facut si eu testul si am obtinut 141.

Sunt unele rezultate, in viata, care vorbesc prin ele si pentru ele, iar altele, care vorbesc doar in timp.

Adica, imediat dupa test, daca ora la care am primit eu sms-ul cu codul, era 13:15 (in 20 noiembrie 2011), ora la care acea persoana a facut testul, in 1 octombrie 2011, era aproximativ 14:37 (GMT+2)… care pentru noi, fiind ora de vara, era de fapt 15:37. Interesant.

Disclaimer: Acum ceva vreme am primit o replica tare interesanta: “Nu trebuie sa fumezi ca sa ma impresionezi pe mine…” Asa era? Iar eu am raspuns: “Nu, ca sa te impresionez pe tine, fac ore suplimentare… de fumat, fumez de nevoie.” De medicament, adica. Yap, that was me

… and receiving, and receiving, and receiving, and Ctrl+C and Ctrl+V

and giving and Ctrl+Z

… and receiving, and receiving, and receiving…

and sighing and rinsing and repeating

Dragut cuvant…
Btw, e o  chestie care ma framanta momentan: de unde iti vin cuvintele, replicile, frazele etc. atunci cand vorbesti fara sa gandesti?
De ce ne e asa de usor cateodata sa ne pierdem unii intr-altii?
De ce facem asta?
De ce ograda vecinului ni se pare mai frumoasa decat a noastra?
De ce “ganditul” a ajuns sa ne consume atat de multa energie?
De ce am uitat ce voiam sa ma mai intreb?

…la toate acestea si la muuulte altele sunt momentan obsedata sa caut raspuns.

A, da, mi-am comandat in sfarsit orga mult-dorita, nu e cine stie ce, dar ar trebui sa-mi foloseasca pentru inceput. La ce? Hmm…la crearea a cat mai multor legaturi intre emisferele mele cerebrale :d am o saptamana la dispozitie ca sa-mi pregatesc viata pentru ea.