So.. tomorrow at 11 AM, my time zone, the Sun will enter Taurus. Considering I only had 2 contractions today, very slim chances she will come until then. Wait, I’m having the 3rd now. Gotta stand up and walk a bit, it helps a lot with the pain, by using gravity in my favor. 😀
Last night I had a very bad nightmare. I first must say that I discovered a new series on Netflix: Touch. It kept me entertained for the past 3 days, totally my type. Yesterday I didn’t even “touch” the crochet hook.
So, about the nightmare. I was in the house, MY mind’s house, most probably, where I usually find myself in my dreams, with many rooms that I know. But this time I discovered a room that was not there before.
It was more like a junk storage room, all sort of old useless tools. I looked around and in the end I left. The door was very big with several locks on it, that I carefully closed, because I had the intuition that something very bad lives in that room. Maybe some very dark part of me.
There was a girl in my dream, in her late teens. She showed me something that I instantly recognised as being taken from that room. Very worried, I asked her if she was there and if she locked the room back properly. She hadn’t.
And then the monster got out. There was a headless woman’s body, that I was struggling so hard to kill. In the end I was smashing her against a mirror, the mirror was cracking and breaking into small pieces but somehow “she” was immune to my force. I killed a lot of monsters in my dreams. Some were harder, some were easier to kill. But this one I couldn’t, so I woke up all sweated and irritated. I desperately need to find that room and clean it.
I know, there was full-moon in my 12th House last night. Maybe that’s why.
On a different train, I just found something very funny on FB. If that 35 years old single Aquarius programmer, who is planning to write a book about his missfortune in finding true love, is who I think he is – just like he was trying to tell me about 12 years ago – he should finally accept it, he is not meant for a mortal’s committed relationship..
Not to put him on a pedestal or anything, but it surprises me that he hadn’t moved on by now, to Tibet. 😀 With all due respect, he should have become a monk, it’s the only way to truly fulfill that destiny. Who knows, maybe apply in the line, to become the next Dalai Lama: Venus conjunct Neptune conjunct Jupiter, in 1st House, in a male chart?! Nope, honey. That woman simply doesn’t exist.
And if he is not who I think he is – although, too many coincidences not to – my bad. I guess I found what was hidden in that dark room. Maybe I needed to accept that it was never my fault. Although, the therapy he suggested helped me, for other issues. 😀 Especially on how to be a emotionally healthy future mom.