34 weeks

Baby is now a bit over 2 kg. I was expecting more, but the doctor didn’t seem to be worried, she said it’s an estimation anyway, as long everything looks fine I should not worry either. But I did buy myself decaf to make for breakfast, let’s see if we can improve baby weight by next week’s check. She was joking with us regarding the baby’s gender.. I told her, if it turns out to be a boy, bummer, he will have to sleep only in pink pajamas :)) But she then assured us she was not seeing any male parts…

I washed the last of the clothes that I bought since last wash and the ones that I crocheted myself.. Will be ironing them tomorrow.

Otherwise.. I have a state somewhat between boredom and depression.. I want so many things done in the house, but I cannot do them myself.. I have no more patience. Everybody tells me to relax.. is not that easy to not do anything. I still washed the floor in the kitchen today, as Leo vacuumed everywhere and washed the hallway on Saturday and did also laundry… so the dirty kitchen floor was now standing out…

On Sunday we had 18 degrees. Leo took Bonnie for a walk and they ended up at Olesna for beer. And I didn’t have the braveness to go with them.. Now is cold again, max 7-8 degrees during the day.

My back is hurting more and more, also my left leg is hurting, at the pelvis, where it was broken, because, for the past 3 months, I am sleeping 80% of the time on my left side.

I’m having these Braxton Hicks contractions more often lately, yesterday and during the night I think I had more than 10, but today all morning only 2. They are not painful, just that I feel I need to change position because I cannot breathe when the belly gets hard, as the baby is now pressing on my right lung.

I was probably dehydrated, although I’m drinking more than 4l of water everyday and I’m waking up at night 3-4 times to pee and to drink water, but yesterday we had also other stuff to do before and after doctor, we left home at 7:30 and got back barely at 14… And last night I woke up 6 times… and the baby was also very restless.

So yeah.. keep calm and crochet. Counting 2 more days, for the Sun to enter Aries 😀 and then I will start to count backwards.



Next Sunday, 10 AM

I dreamed about something.. I was given this date, the place was “100 m from Metro on Liberty or Liberation Street”.. or something.

My crochet hook fell under the bed.. 😦 Now I have to bend down to get it.. Simple task, but not when you are in your 3rd Trimester. I hate gravity 😀 I’m crocheting 3 things in parallel, I get tired easily of using the same color and same pattern, so this way it feels it’s something new each time.

Anyway, I’ve been quite exhausted mentally and emotionally by yesterday evening.. And I don’t have any reason, right? I mean, I’m not doing anything all day except crocheting, watching Netflix, preparing food and eating… but I always have this feeling that someone is rushing me, I cannot just “relax”.

I dreamed all night.. First dream, that I remember, I was with some other woman and we were in someone’s apartment and that person was not at home.

I don’t know how we got there, but we were afraid we will be sent to jail once the person comes home. Then, one neighbour heard something and she came to check, she was knocking at the door. We silently locked the entry door from the inside, it stood like that for a while, but then the owner came also. And I had to invent an excuse of what we are doing there.. I said we are psychology students and we needed to make an experiment.. I don’t know if they believed us or not but we managed to get out in the end.

The other dream… Is more personal. It’s funny, I asked at the end “So when we will see each other again?” and I was not expecting any answer, I was very surprised when I received it. It was even Neděle, not Sunday or Duminica. I wanted to type it down in my phone, but, when I took it out, my phone was one of those old grey Nokia with numbers, where you had to press on a number several times to get the letter you needed. And then I said “wait, let me do this the old way”, so I took out from my bag a notebook and a pen and I started writing down.

I was feeling a bit sorry for setting wrong expectations, because I knew I will not be able to make it, because I was living in Czech Republic and I also had a daughter at home, but I don’t think the other person knew this, so…

Besides, I don’t know on which date to place the action of the dream, I knew it was Saturday, though, and it was not related to “tomorrow”, as in, “this Sunday”, but to “next Sunday”. Because, if we were in the present time.. -ish, I might say March 24th… So yeah. Let’s see what happens then. 🙂

I have to let Bonnie back in, it’s kinda coldish outside, 5°C, and he’s been for almost 1 hour now.

33 weeks

Not much to say this time..

I’m fine, keep piling kilograms… waiting 😀 and crocheting:20190312_084326~2

Learning new patterns every week.

Ok, I will say that it snowed last night a bit, it was 1 cm of white this morning, on the grass and on the roofs.

And that mom wrote me that she bought some cute pink short sleeves bodies and one dark red cardigan for baby. Ok, so I can officially say that we have enough clothes for now.

Later edit: Wait! While watching the newest episode of Young Sheldon I remembered what I dreamed last night: someone had left me a Bible in my post box… It had white cover and with dark red and gold letters on it.

I opened it, it wasn’t really the whole Bible, just some books from it.. but I can’t remember which ones, they were from the New Testament, though. And I’m also trying to remember who gave it to me.. I know it was something like a redemption for some good thing I did for that person. Actually, keep trying to remember I do have “Corinthians” coming to my mind. BRB.

The last March 8

That I will be spending alone. 😀 Next year we will be two women in the house.

I am getting more and more curious to know that little creature that lives inside me. And more and more curious to see when she will be born.

Yesterday I received also the diapers backpack from Amazon. It’s awesome! So many pockets and so much space. And I managed to iron more than half of her remaining onesies and swadles. It felt so cute. I wonder if I will have the time and mood to iron them like this after every wash and fold them in those tiny IKEA organising boxes.

Jupiter is now transiting conjunct my natal Jupiter and he will touch also my Sun and my Neptune in the following months. Last time this happened in 2007.. it was a great year, until about the end, when Pluto transit f***d it up and everything started to feel like I’m being sucked into a black hole..

But this year is just Jupiter alone! Pluto and Saturn are peacefully transiting the 3rd House. I say peacefully, because I don’t have any natal planets there and it will take a while until they will start to square all my planets from 1st and 2nd House.

Regarding Pluto, I think the fact that this planet manages to touch only 6 Houses during your whole lifetime it can give you a pretty good idea about your destiny. In my case, it will move only from the 12th House until the end of 5th House (counting a max lifespan of 100 years).

Which means my transformation in this life it’s oriented more inwards than outwards. I’m not here to improve the world, I’m here to improve myself. And for the next almost 20 years I should focus in the areas ruled by the 3rd House.

So yeah.. So many birds are chirping outside and it’s sunny and warmish, but very bad wind.. Finally finished crocheting that baby dress that I started more than 2 weeks ago:20190308_094205~2


32 weeks

I just received a new pack from Amazon: mirror for baby car seat, one very cute Columbia fleece overall, more yarn balls for crocheting and few packs of WaterWipes. And the 2nd part of the order should come on Thursday, a baby diapers backpack and some hair&body Mustela baby washing gel.

On Saturday I had a visit in DM and Pepco, as planned, bought a very cute Disney set (pants, body, hat and hooded jacket), some DM brand diapers and 1 pink newborn pacifier – just in case. Indeed, the DM diapers don’t smell at all, compared to the Pampers Premium Care ones and they are also a bit cheaper. Will see which ones the baby likes more.

And yesterday we went to another baby shop in Ostrava and we bought a little baby tub with head support for newborn. 330 crowns in total. Basic, but cute, with bunnies. 😀 It even has a color coded sticker that tells you if the water is too hot or too cold. They didn’t have the Adorra stroller so I can study it live.. But they had so many other stuff… ridiculously expensive.

For example, that diapers disposal bin that I saw in the vlog of the australian couple, it was costing 780 czk (~30 eur) and then you had to buy also the refill plastic bags extra.. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t consider myself poor, but I believe buying this thing is a very un-wise gesture.. What’s wrong with simple small garbage plastic bags?! It’s 30 czk a roll of 100 bags (2-3 litres), I’m sure they will not let any odors escape if you tie them properly.

And some automatic swing – 4000 czk.. Or play mat 2000 czk.. She can also sleep on the couch, between pillows, during the day, while Bonnie is watching her :D. And then, tummy time play on the washable changing mat, directly on the carpet. 😀 Besides, I saw a lot of vlogs of mommies feeling sorry that they bought them in advance and then the babies hated them.

And sleeping bags – probably dedicated for those babies sleeping outside in Siberia – extremely fluffy and with hard zippers.. 1500 czk one. I need one of 1 tog, Ikea had a very nice one, but currently not on stock anymore, in my area.

And then, one set of baby tub with legs and head support, was 2000 czk… because the tub had scale and digital thermometer incorporated. Honestly, I would be afraid to put the baby in water in a device that uses batteries.. but yeah.. consumerism.

Just few examples.. I mean, I do want the best for my kid, that’s why I prefer to save this money for music, dance and language lessons, than literally throw them in the garbage, after she starts kindergarten and outgrows them.

Among other things.. I’m fighting with some gastric reflux again, for the past 3 days. And still I would eat all the time.. I put 3 kg in the past 3 weeks 😀 14 in total, so far.. I need to do some meditation, I had some stressful weeks… Only that “paper operation” I think it grew me 10 more gray hairs.

I talked with the doctor yesterday at the regular check, she said if I were to deliver, like, now, as baby is 1.8 – 1.9 kg, there should be no issues for a natural birth.. But if I will manage until term, for a 3.5 – 4 kg baby, we can definitely discuss also the option of c-section. So I’m kinda praying for full term now.. I mean, I don’t know, whatever/whenever the baby wants. I will love her no matter what and even if.

For the time being I have prepared her corner in our room (until her room will be ready), a 3 drawers komoda with all her stuff, separated by those Ikea boxes, top drawer: newborn onesies, pajamas, newborn diapers and wipes, 2nd drawer: hooded towels, wash clothes, some burping and plain swaddle blankets and more diapers (I’m kinda starting to feel sorry that I bought that very expensive Miracle Blanket, currently in the maternity bag, but will see), 3rd drawer: bodies, footed pants and jamies on bigger sizes, outdoors clothes and more diapers and wipes.

And next to the window we will have a changing mat and another changing mat will be in the bathroom, next to her baby tub.. And probably will have another changing corner on the couch down-stairs. The co-sleeping bed is still unpacked, Leo doesn’t want to open and install it yet, says it’s too early. I think he is right, but I’m too curious.

So this week I plan to slowly wash and iron also the other clothes (up to 6 and 9 months – not that many left, max 15 items, in total), the rest of the blankets, wash clothes and the baby wrap sling, just to have them all ready, in the same place.

So yeah.. We survived 8 more weeks since the steroid shots. They said if labor starts until 35 weeks they might consider another dose, then, later than 35 weeks will not be needed anymore.

31 weeks

So, we solved “The Paper”!!! Yeey! It costed us 1600 crowns for 1 sworn translation of my birth certificate, one hour of interpretation services and the parking at Ostrava Matrika.

Miminko is ok, kicking all over the place, I even felt kicks behind my right boob… I wonder how she got there. I’m having some lower back pains lately, I hope they are not contractions and I’m not aware.. Yeah, and I’m feeling kicks also in my… back area.

Tomorrow is my last day before 2 days vacation, before 28 weeks of Maternity Leave. I’m excited about the change. I mean, like everybody tells me “it was about time”.. I’m 35 already.

Yesterday evening I was checking flights to Bali. 2 weeks when baby girl will be 6-7 months old. Too optimist? 😀

Regarding shopping for baby girl, we still need stroller, small bath tub, diapers bag and countless diapers. I have them in basket on amazon.de and in DM online. Waiting few more weeks before ordering them, though.

30 weeks!!

Yeah… I’m starting to feel the 3rd trimester: it has become quite a challenging task to shave my legs and to attend to my toe nails 😀

So, the glucose test was negative, which means I can eat as much chocolate cookies as I desire; the baby girl is still head down and still kicking me in my right ribs.. She is almost 1500 grams now. Yeey! At least 1500 more to come 😀

Did I dream about this day? Not really. I mean, I was hoping, but, since I was first admitted into hospital at barely 24 weeks, with diagnostic of imminent labor, and I was told that the baby will be put on my name, because I’m missing a paper in my file, I kinda had a shock.. I mean, from that moment on, I was taking each day as it passed… no dreams, no expectations.. Barely now I’m starting to feel naturally excited about the fact that I’m going to have a baby.

And “the paper”, I mean, I was planning to inquire about it and solve it once I started my maternity leave, travel to Prague in peace etc. Yeah. Dreams done before the 24th week. But will see, what God wants. I do what I can, considering. The most important is for the baby to be born healthy.

Lesson learned: when you relocate to a foreign country, even if still in the EU, add another thing on top of the required to-do list: get a sworn translation, in the local language, of your birth certificate. You never know in which circumstances you will need it. Especially when none of these 2 languages are common. Especially when you relocate again, to a smaller city, 5h away from the capital…

And, can you believe it? I have 6 more working days left until a 2 years “vacation” 😀 This year I even forgot to celebrate my 8 years work anniversary, at the current employer, on Feb 14th. But I can celebrate it now, because we had 1&1/2 h unplanned electricity outage today, so I need to “clean” the congelator of some pizza and some ice-cream. 😀

And a cute butterfly sweater, that I just finished, I’m thinking is suitable for up to 1 year old: 20190219_172029~2

29 weeks and still counting

So.. mom flew back to Romania, to her other 2 children: dad and brother.

I haven’t felt at my optimum capacity today.. I started having some weird cramps after lunch, I took the rest of the day off, because I couldn’t support the laptop anymore, over my lap. To not say, over my belly. And when the cramps stopped, a headache started and now I’m sneezing… hoping the shower tonight will fix this.

I still don’t have the result from my glucose tolerance test.. My obgyn, on Friday, said it didn’t arrive to her, so God knows where that result is, they said they will call for it and she will tell me at my next appointment. I honestly find this stupid, they should’ve sent it to my email from the 2nd day, when it was ready..

Baby girl looked fine, she was with head down then. Now I think she switched, as I feel kicks under my right ribbs, instead of over my belly button. I was expecting her to be a bit bigger than she measured on Friday, but maybe there is a margin of error also.. will see next time, maybe she will catch up.

In the meanwhile I started eating a bit more, even if I don’t really feel hungry, I added a snack before bed – a cup of milk or yogurt with a croissant.. I mean, since Dec 28th I only put on 200 grams, I think both the Magnesium and the Progesterone have accelerated my metabolism. And the bed rest has melted my muscles..

So.. Here’s something cute that I just finished: 20190212_184329-1

I hope it is suitable for 6-9 months, I measured with the other clothes I have. 😀

Btw, all the clothes “up to 3 months” are now washed and ironed and packed by mom. Thank you, mom.

28 weeks and counting :D

Writing this entry with dedication for my biggest fan, the only person offering positive comments to my blog lately 🙂

So.. Yesterday we had the glucose tolerance test. We survived it. It tasted like Fanta syrup, without sparks.

I mean, I was very close to fainting, right after they took out blood, “the after 60 min draw”.

They lifted my legs up, lowered my head, opened the window. They even asked me if I want to stop the test, because “we don’t have resuscitation tools” here. As pale as I was, I laughed when they said that. Don’t worry, is not my first time fainting and it will probably not be the last time either, I know there is life after fainting. But I was worried about this little octopus in my belly.

Anyway, I asked for a toilet break, they took me there by wheel chair, they were afraid I will fall down. I was afraid also, to be honest. And they gave me to have a sip of water. And then I was counting the minutes until the 2nd blood draw, “the after 120 min”. But I started feeling better. And when it was over, I took mom from the waiting room and we went down-stairs to eat. And then I called taxi and we went home.

I don’t have the result yet, but I’m thinking, if there was something out of the charts someone would have called me, right?

And today we sorted out all the white clothes for the baby and we put them to wash. And tomorrow we will iron them and pack them nicely in the bed. Yeah, my Next 2 Me baby bed came from Amazon yesterday! And the other stuff I ordered, from which, a pack of 10 colored yarn balls for crocheting. 😀

So, yeah, mom is here. Aside from cooking and tending to my small needs, to not have to go down too many times, she is also nice company. I mean it’s good to have someone to talk in my language whenever I want to.

Last night I dreamed I was flying! Such a lovely dream! In the past 3 weeks I had only bad dreams and I was barely sleeping 2-3h connected. I’m always waking up worried, hoping that my water is still intact.

Next check in hospital I will have on Friday, so yeah, still counting!

27 weeks and counting

We were at the check today. And my little miminko has a bit over 1 kg already. 🙂

Everything looks fine so far, we are back at home from Wednesday afternoon last week and I retook my full-time work activities. Intensive handover trainings for the colleagues that will take over my responsibilities.

The days are passing much faster at home and I can rest much better at night. In the first 3 nights home I slept 12h each night 😀

Now I won’t have to leave the house until Monday next week, when I will finally have the glucose test… Yeah… Long story.

So… Keep in there miminko. At least 3 more weeks, until I finish delivering all the trainings 😀

Sometimes she is kicking so much with both legs and arms that I feel I have an octopus growing in my belly. But no. She only has 2 arms and 2 legs. Quite long legs actually, measuring at 28 weeks by her femur length, so she will be a tall human… and slimmish like her daddy. So we might have to consider signing her for volleyball or basketball better than for gymnastics.

And something interesting.. or not.. with all this bed rest and after 2 weeks of hospital food, I now have the exact same amount of kg as on December 28th, when they started giving me this Magnesium and Progesterone. Considering the baby doubled in this time, I can say I even lost 0.5 kg… I wonder how much muscle I lost. 😦