Ghosts can talk

I’m in 4th day of Yoga camp. Same place like last year. Even if it’s still painful to sit in yoga posture I do my best. Yesterday morning I felt the need to burn myself out a little, consume all the extra carbs from the weekend, so I took it on the road, until the nearest village. 5 km way, 5 km back. It was super. My most prefered way of meditating, walking all by myself into unknown surroundings.

Yeah, about that 25%. Remember the “unidentified slovenian guy” from last year? Yeah, he is also here. I’m crossing him everywhere. This morning was the first person I crossed into while heading to the hot water tank to pour it over my instant coffee. He took juice from the tank dedicated to children. He might still be one, I cannot seem to judge his age properly, he might be from 17 to 25..

Anyway, so after spotting him around for few times at one point, as I was lurking around for Pokemons – did I mention? there is one pokestop and one gym right here in the camp, epic! – guided by a spirit higher than my usual self I approached him by his name and presented myself. I told him the truth and nothing but the truth. That he looks very much like someone I knew and he is somehow like a ghost to me. And that is weird. Nevermind. Take care.

I feel relieved! Like a stone has been lifted from my chest. I’m still curious to know when his birthday is – just for scientific purposes – but who knows, maybe we will talk again… next year.

I dreamed last night – among some weird dreams – that we saw each other in the patio and he came to me and touched my right hand, as in, to make a connection between our so different worlds. I didn’t feel anything, it was too short, but I woke up wondering. I do believe there is more to this reality than we can see only with our eyes.

Maybe we know from a previous life. Although, after my car accident, I started to stop believing that there is any life after death, but that’s a whole new different topic.

When the lights turn out

Do cats eat also bread and butter? :)) That was funny, me, standing in my hands, upside down, in the door of my balcony, when he asked me from the door of his balcony “did you feed bread and butter to my cat?” The funny part is that I didn’t know he owns a cat.

This post should’ve been titled “two months”, or “zwei Monate” to be more precise, but it doesn’t matter anymore. It’s scary, though.

On the other hand, that program that catches those little yellow rabbits could be useful.

in House’s house

So besides dreaming being hunted by wasps, some of them being quite big… I dreamed I was in a house that supposed to be House’s. And someone was chasing me. An old lady with a lawyer next to her, they were downstairs, I saw them from the window and I rushed to seal the entry door.

I knew I was House’s daughter and that old lady was my grandma and she was coming to get me with her. As I was locking the door, that looked so big and solid like a fortress door, I was also trying to dial my dad, House, on my new phone, to tell him to come soon home. After I sealed the main door, deep down knowing that no matter how solid it is, it will not last long, I was trying to lock myself in the bathroom. There was no locker at the bathroom door.😦 That’s when I got really pissed off and I rushed out shouting at them: what the f* do you want barging in? In my house? I noticed now I was having also House speaking to me on the phone…

In another dream I dreamed I was sorting make-up palettes. I was having quite a few…

I started enjoying studying for F5. I’m at Chapter 5. It started to become more captivating, nonetheless today I had the revelation that I’m still only repeating what I learned in school so far, just in a different language. It looks complicated at the first reading, but when I start exercising it on my own with pencil and eraser (just like my own real dad used to tell me often, that study is done with pencil and eraser and I never cared to listen) I realize I didn’t actually learn anything new, I just remembered what I already knew..

For example, in chapter 5, there is this graphic model of calculating the optimum combination between 2 products, that need to be produced, that will maximize the contribution to profit and fix costs. There is an area of graph delimited by first degree equations, that need to be tangented by a line created from another first degree equation. Quite simple in the end.. it made me remember my infinite notebooks of math exercises in highschool… and when I got a 2(two) grade one time, ONLY because I didn’t copy on my “homework notebook” one exercise that we did in class and I was having it also on the “class notebook”… anyway..

If I could turn back time I would tell that teacher to go f* herself, as I should have other more important things to stress about, since, after 10 years of work experience, after 6 years of university studies, all without paying for, I will have to pay a lot of british pounds for some degree that requires 8th grade math. At least, so far.😀

And the side effect of all this is that I won’t be satisfied to pass it with a % lower than 80%, after passing F4 with 82% and proving to myself that I CAN. I was never a “50% pass student”, why should I start now?

Conclusion: If you work like a bee you will eventually smell like honey. And all the wasps will try to get you. How do bees defend themselves from wasps?

PS. Sharing some funny lines from another dream, from another day, with my most common dream character: He – stop putting so many tickets to lottery, as your angels will run away, they don’t like this. Me – ha ha, since when do you believe in angels? or into this specific theory that your angels can run away if you do this or the other? He didn’t say anything, just giggled and leaned to kiss me. And I said: – I would only kiss you if you’ll promise me it will not be just this one time. So we didn’t kiss. That time.

A new character..

Last night in my dream she told me the livers were cooked a bit too dry… Creepy dream: I’m metaphorically giving freely my livers away to be eaten and I receive even complaints that they weren’t perfect… She was actually nice about it… And I was trying to excuse myself saying that I’m not that good into cooking since I only eat sandwiches and… bananas. Anyway..

She was also telling me that he is not paying much attention to her and he rarely tells her what his plans are. And I told her the truth. Which truth, you ask? I was about to write that is not relevant, but considering how my dreams changed lately, regarding location and characters, I may say I started a new obsession. Or I should take a break from House, at least 1h before sleep, I have 2 more episodes and finish season 5. Or it’s a proof I’m really narcissistic for falling, for a mirror of myself. Or completely lacking in personality, for missing a mirror of myself. Or too literary creative.

How’s my new phone you ask? Well, I’m getting used to it. After trying the whole week to make time to get to my phone provider to ask for a micro-sim card, this morning I took the matter… and the scissors, in my own hands. It works. I was even praised for my cutting skills.

A, yeah.. first half of today was probably the most productive time in our relationship so far: I did laundry (ok, machine did them) and dusted and vacuumed most of the house (I mean, all the current habited areas, I decided I’m healed enough to do it myself, no more cleaning lady this week.😀 ) and cooked lunch (steamed broccoli and banana yogurt smoothie… and a small chicken steak for me), while he took care of the grass in the whole garden. I was checking the planets to see some positive transit to our composite Libra Mars, but I couldn’t see anything out of ordinary.

 

Today I hatched a Pikachu

From a 2 km egg:
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And yesterday afternoon I caught a Nidoqueen!

And I got a Vapoeron and a Jolteon from evolved Eevees. A lot of Eevees around here… Cool! I just evolved another Jolteon, of 1000 CP while writing this!! A 500 CP Eevee hatched from a 10km egg. I wished for a Flareon, though, to have them all 3, but what can you do…

Yesterday while training at the big yellow church gym I met the guy who kicked my Vaporeon from Fryda Gym of fryday evening. :)) I was training and training and at some point I noticed my Pokemons are being kicked out and the Gym turned blue. And I looked behind me and there he was, with his tiny dog on the leash :)) He confirmed the 1600 CP Lapras was his…

My biggest issue is running out of balls. :)) It looks like after some level you need 5-6 balls to catch a pokemon, aside from the Razberry, because the b** escape from the ball. I don’t even bother for Pidgeys, Weedles, Caterpies & Zubats if they are over 50 XP – these are the most frequent in my location – because I know I will have to waste more than 1 ball on them.

Just evolved another Pidgeot, of 900 CP.🙂

Yeah, about that..

Today I caught 2 Jigglypuffs.🙂 I’m now at Level 12. My current biggest one has over 400 CP.. the closest gym from my house is at 1 km distance (red), the 2nd – in a different direction – at 1,5 km (blue) and the 3rd – opposite direction as the first – at about 3 km (it was yellow at the beginning, but today I noticed is red). And I’m in Yellow Team.

I found out why my AR mode was not working: because my phone doesn’t have a gyroscope. And then I checked the tablet and it had. But the android version of the tablet was lower than required. So I updated the tablet. Now I play both on phone and tablet. I like it better on tablet, is charging much faster and doesn’t get blocked so often like on the phone. But still I can hardly wait to get the new phone.

I got to middle season 4 of House. It’s still a mystery to me (pun intended :D) why I watch it, considering this year I lived over 4 months in hospital…

I had a lovely dream last night. The usual topic and character. Epic. As usual. Except, wait, at the beginning there was another character that I don’t dream about often. Interesting. I’m always in Ro in my dreams and I struggle to find ways to fly back here and to explain to everyone why I’m there and not here… Nothing about Germany, though. So I might be wrong in my prediction this time.

I lost my appetite for studying for now. I feel quite drained mentally lately… I cannot concentrate anymore… plus, this F5 has a lot of mathematic and more complex exercises… I feel like I’m studying for admission to the university. I make stupid calculus mistakes. And then suddenly my brain gets flooded by too many memories. Too much. After the working hours I throw everything, mount on bike and head to the city center, hunting Pokémons. Or take Bonnie on a leash and head to the forest, hunting Pokémons. This game is not addictive. It’s plain obsessive-compulsive.

Ein ganzer Monat

Heute Morgen bin ich mit einer unglaublichen Energie zu fotografieren aufgewacht. Ich habe meine großen alten Dslr und die Filter gesucht und die Batterie aufzuladen.

Einen ganzen Monat lang vom was, du fragst ? na ja, nicht wichtig😀

Ich träumte, ich an den “Registrar of Companies” war und wir in einer Buchhaltungpartnerschaft mit beschränkter Haftung einzutreten besprachen.

Aber der Typ aus dem Registrar sagte, ich habe nicht genug Wissen, in diese mich einzulassen und auch dass es nicht empfehlenswert ist, eine professionelle Partnerschaft mit jemandem für den ich Gefühle habe zu beginnen.

Es war lustig. Das sieht aus wie mein Gehirn die Studienmaterial werfen ist.

Gestern habe ich wieder Fahrrad fahren begonnen, habe einige Kilometer gemacht.

Ich wünsche, meine heutige Stimmung in einem Glas zu speichern und einen Löffel aus es jedes Mal, wenn ich deprimiert fühle, zu nehmen. Ich fühle mich wie am Meer bin und die Wellen und Die Brise genieße, auch wenn ich gerade im Haus vor dem Computer bin.

Berličkyless

Today I walked freely 4 km, without discomfort! I’m still studying for F4, next week I have the exam. I almost finished season 2 of House. And I am already too tired to write more about me. For now.

I wonder how Josie is doing. And how much more Moon and Meredith have until delievering.😀

And why I had the feeling in my last dream that, if I’m standing with my face towards the wall, playing nervously with that apple, he will not see/recognise me when he will enter the building… and I will be able to carry on my investigation…

27 czk and a 5 eur bill

Long dream I had last night! I dreamed I was running :)) it’s good, I just started walking freely inside the house, I mean, without crutches, and I already run in my dreams.

Just passed over a flu or cold or whatever, that kept me one week with mushy eyes and running nose and slightly coughing. Still didn’t recover 100% of my voice, though. Not that much fun to come back sick from vacation. Some virus I might have caught in the way to Vienna.. or in the way back, since none of my family got sick also… A cold that made me cancel my trip to Prague on Tuesday. At least it was fun in Vienna, even if it was for less than 24h.

What else… yeah, last weekend, on Saturday morning Bonnie ran away. Again. But he came back all by himself, we found him outside, on the carpet, on Monday morning at 6, he was waiting all wet and scared from the heavy rain. And the new bench was all dirty from his muddy paws, he probably climbed there all night at the window, for us to let him back in.😦 Bummer, we sleep upstairs. And of course we searched for him… through all the neighborhood, shouting and whistling from the car.

Yeah, I dreamed I had to take a bus somewhere and the trip was 27 crowns, so I was preparing to hand 54 crowns to the driver for the way and return ticket, but in the meantime he grabbed the 5 euro bill I had in my wallet. So I slapped him and took my bill back and ran down from the bus. I wonder what could this mean.

And I wish to see more Firefly beatles, like the one that was flying in our room yesterday night. Lucky my boyfriend saw it and showed it to me. It was really magical, as it was flying over the bed. I tried to film it but it was glowing only in the dark and the camera was not capturing anything but black..

What else?… Yeah, I missed also the “10 years from faculty graduation reunion”.. I missed a lot this year already, that’s why I started now to study obsessively for F4 and F5. It’s quite interesting F4 now… no wonder they say there is a time for everything. I need to feel I’m doing something useful with my time, outside of Junos and Venuses and Houses, at least until I will be able to run again. A, yeah, I started re-watching House, right from episode 1.😀