So, about this obsession of being original… ok, at least as much original as achieving/experiencing something that, from what you know so far, no one from the people you met in this life – I mean, people you had the chance to meet personally, as in colleagues from school, university, hobbies, former and actual work places – achieved it already.
Let’s take traveling for example… after living in a foreign country – and I keep repeating this about me, as in bragging, because so far is my biggest personal and professional achievement/experience – now I’m not that much in the mood to travel into a different country or experience brand new different cultures, since I have so many things pending to assimilate from the places I already seen…
My bf said he would like to spend one month in the USA next year summer… as much as I was into this idea 2 years ago, now it’s completely out of my resonance zone. It’s not something special anymore, to spend 1 month in America… I know tens of people who already did it and I’m sure he also knows at least as many. It’s over-highly commercialized. On the other side, what would really be a wonderful experience, for a Czech person, is to spend 1 month in Romania. 😀
Now, a different thing: getting married and having children. I also know a lot of people who did it and so far I don’t know anyone to brag that much about it as to inspire me into how wonderful it is to tie the knot and settle down. Even in a foreign country, with a foreign husband. I mean, I don’t want to have the feeling that I’m following anyone’s footsteps.
Actually you know what would be nice and I don’t know anyone to brag about it? Helping their own family, like in buying them a ticket to visit you in the Czech Republic, thanks to some extra money you received as tax refund.. Wait a moment, no! I’m sorry, I already know someone who did the exact things. Or someone to send money to their younger siblings in need? Yeah, I already know someone who did this also.
Starting a healthier life, exercising regularly, starting some yoga, even starting considering turning vegetarian. Hmm… just few persons I met from this camp yet, but I’m not convinced. I’m convinced though, that 1 month without meat will kill me. Also, even if I do my best of convincing myself that I like running in the gym, like a sweating mouse in a wheal, I actually hate it. The only sport I love is practiced with a bicycle. And for once, I don’t care how many people I know that are already doing it, it’s just that to buy one here was out of my reach so far – a new one is too expensive and I don’t have a place to keep it or to store it at work. Or at least I didn’t find a suitable one yet. So I think the only option will be to consider buying a second-hand one and start praying for a place to store it.
Shortly, I feel suffocated by so many positive examples I have around me. I want to set some examples also, but I want to be original. Not even joining the dark side – where they have cookies – will help me, because I think there are even more people who did this already. But, still, I don’t think I have met anyone personally yet, from this camp.
Yeah, another thing, as a bonus: the hobbies. As in acting classes. Which I have no idea why I am following them, I cannot say I enjoy it too much, but maybe that’s the whole point: not feeling comfortable means that these exercises make me get out of my comfort zone. Anyway, on September 16th, I should start a new module… but the almost one hour and a half that I’ll have to spend in the tram, metro and bus, every Monday and Wednesday night, to return from the class, it’s a complete turn of. Wait – later edit – I found some easier suitable transportation connections 😀 Or maybe I should find a new place to live, closer to the place with the classes.
Which reminds me: the singing lessons. In June I was finally able to find a teacher willing to teach me singing and we established a first meeting. That first meeting turned out to be in the day with those disastrous floods in Prague, when they closed almost all metro station in down-town, it was heavily raining and I considered it would be safer for me not to go. As soon as I found about the floods situation I sent email to the teacher apologizing myself that I cannot make it anymore and if it will be possible to post-pone it. I received back a very angry message, that I wasted his time and that I cannot cancel the appointment just 2 hours before and that he doesn’t want to hear about me again. 😦
I guess maybe it would have been prettier to go down town, get all wet, have no phone range or internet connection, get lost because I don’t know the language and most locals barely speak English, not arrive in time, curse my days that I got out from the house, catch a cold, take medical leave and stay home first 2 days without even being paid, because in the Czech Republic they pay medical vacation only from the 3rd day… lucky I didn’t need it so far.
Anyway.. I got a little side-tracked in complaining.. 😀
So, what should I do? something that no one else did? Besides joining the Olympic Season organized by the company where I work and being in the team who ended on the first place. Yeah, baby, I own a gold medal! Ok, ok, symbolic gold.