Today I’m scared..

I never thought I would experiment this again, but today morning when I woke up and I realized today I have to work I felt like being pulled under by a tone of bricks. Under the world… Under the everything. I don’t know why I’m so stressed out, there was nothing out of the ordinary… some people still have vacation so quite low work-load.

I noticed some very tiny light pinkish discharge this evening. Now I cannot stop feeling worried. I don’t even know what to do, it was too little, I cannot call the doctor just for this.. Instead I used a double dose of the Utrogestan for today’s evening… Just to be sure.

On the other hand… I feel scared. See… I feel scared on both hands.

Now I’m worrying that maybe I have exagerated with my walking in the past 3 days, because the weather was very good and also I was feeling good: 8 km on Tuesday, 7 yesterday, 3 &1/2 today. I didn’t run or jump or push too hard, it was just light walking with Bonnie along.

Yeah… The only thing that makes me feel better is aknowledging that I cannot control everything. If it’s meant to be it will happen, if not, then… maybe I’m not in the right place and in the right time, aligned with my destiny, so maybe I need to be much more brave and dare to make a radical change of scenery…

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