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One month later – THM

Klara is back online. 🙂

– So, did you have enough time to meditate?

– Jason!, Hi. … Meditate?!

– Yeah, about what I wrote you last time. That obsessions are not good.

– Jason, you don’t even know me. Seriously, you have no idea what has been going on in my life since the last time I saw you. I doubt you had an idea at all, even when we were seeing each other… in classes. More or less. You got stuck on something that I told you, something that happened almost 10 years ago and you just cannot see anything else aside that. And you come to me with the thing that obsessions are not good.

– ?!

– Yes, you don’t know anything at all about me. You know actually this makes me feel disappointed. I’ve been living in an illusion and you in an obsession. I always had this feeling of warmth coming from you, as if you were aware of everything that I was doing, I mean, in the good way, like watching me in a form of a guardian angel. Now I realize, maybe, the one that was guiding me was one of Moon’s angels. Btw, how is Moon, is she ok?

– Leave Moon aside from this, please. I mean, seriously, you were dreaming of me guiding your steps, you know I have my own life also.

– So then why we still continue having this conversation? It’s late and I want to go to bed.

– Oh, yeah, I forgot you’re 7h behind me.

Or ahead. Actually I lost track which one of the two characters was in Mexico.

– But seriously, Jason, I don’t know what you want from me. People do grow up, it’s been 10 years, move on. (Ok, actually it’s been 9, but Klara was rounding up for dramatic effect). I mean, have you even seen my Linkedin profile, just out of curiosity? I started watching “The Good Witch”. I think I found my role-model, what I want to become in the next 10 years.

– Got it, blonde girl. Actually this is what I do remember about you and smile, I remember how blonde you were. Cassie is quite the opposite of blonde..

– You know Cassie? 😀

– Of course, I’m at season 4 already.

– What?! But they didn’t even start filming for season 4.

– Well, I guess you understand where I am, now. Where I stand in your life, as long as I can see your future, what’s the point in being up to date with your past? Do you even remember how you got that job in the first place?

– Good joke. Sure, now you are trying to charm me, I thought the shoes of the angel I was seeing you were too big for you to walk in them so you rejected the role I offered you.

– Cassie… a, sorry, Klara – I was just trying to get to know you. I mean, if Cassie is not the perfect peaceful character, I don’t know who else might be.

– Good night Jason. Kiss Meredith from me 😉


The Healing Moon :)

Previously in “The Healing Moon” (everything what I was capable of inventing all these years, since I wrote the first chapter in 2010):

  • Meredith is the actual partner of Jason, with whom she had a baby boy named Michael
  • Meredith was the pediatrician of Jason’s girl, Josie, the one he had with Moon
  • and he had to raise alone for a while
  • until Moon got resurrected again, because the angels saw that Josie was suffering too much without her mom and started to lose the contact with reality
  • Moon was pregnant when she died, but when she came back to life the baby was still there, it was a baby girl they named Lia
  • Moon is raising both daughters alone now, with the help of the angels
  • Klara is a former colleague of Jason, from the time he is was living in Germany
  • now Klara lives and works in Mexico
  • Tara is one of Moon’s close friends, with whom she was sharing her stuff, in the period when Jason went missing

Ok, so the thing is, apparently Jason had some fortunate time to do some meditation and try to solve a part of his life’s struggles and he started to remember the good times he spent in the company of Klara. He became curious to see what happened in her life since they haven’t seen each other and, when he found her blog, in German, he was shocked to realize that Klara never managed to get over him.

And this is how he slowly started to open up and talk with Moon about her. And then he wrote her a comment on her blog that “obsessions are not good”.

Ok, ok, I didn’t figure out the plot of it entirely, but what will happen is that Klara starts chating with Jason and at one point Jason writes her:

“I didn’t want to keep contact with you during all these years because I wanted you to grow in your life without the fear that you are ever owing something to me. I helped you when I knew how, but I couldn’t intervene more, there were some things that you had to live through just yourself, alone, although it wasn’t easy for me not to contact you.”

Klara remains speechless when she reads… she starts typing but she doesn’t know what to write, nothing seems appropriate enough with what she actually feels. Then she sees another message from Jason:

“I was afraid that, if I would ever contact you and tell you that I do miss you, you would take the first flight back and give up everything you’ve built so far.”

And then Klara finally replies:

“Yes, you are right, I did think about it this way at the beginning, I was honestly hoping for you to give a sign that you want me. But since you didn’t, for so long, especially after I found out that you got married, I tried to do something with my life also. Now I would definitely not fall for something like this, I did move on, even if I sometimes like to fantasize over the opposite of this, just for fun.”

And Jason replies: “I love you”.

Klara disconnects.

Jason and Klara

Ok, maybe “relationship” was too much to describe my connection with Klara. It was more like a teacher-student friendship, where the roles of student or teacher weren’t clearly established, each one could be either, depending on the context.

– Klara? Is there any connection with your colleague Klara who leads the business planning division, in Mexico?, asked Moon surprised.

– Yes, she is the same. She did achieve quite a lot in these past 10 years since I haven’t seen her.

I remember a particular situation, when we auditioned for a master class. We were sitting for a juice at the coffee shop next to the faculty campus, where the audition took place.

At one point she started remembering her audition and she was telling us, yet mostly trying to convince herself, that she thinks it went well. She looked quite drained and I could even sense she was nervous, although I didn’t ask myself at that time if she was nervous because she was sitting next to me or because of her audition.

At first I didn’t pay attention at what she was saying because I was immersed in my own thoughts. As I was finding my seat at the table I noticed the committee from the audition, they were sitting for a coffee break just few tables away.. Yeah, and Klara at one point started to talk a bit louder, thing I didn’t like, as I didn’t want her to put me in a bad light and ruin my chances to get the master class, should the committee see me with her.

So I touched her right hand gently, to catch her attention, and softly told her that she should be careful at what she is saying. And then she suddenly became pale and started talking about her purpose in life. I was very surprised to notice how sensitive this girl really was and I felt a bit sorry for stealing her even that little excitement that it was showing above her sadness. But then I was saved by the waitress, which came with a wooden treasure box. They were serving the bill in a treasure box, I found it funny and I showed it to her trying to cheer her up a bit. “Hang in there, child, everything is going to be alright, and eventually you will find also your purpose in life”, I was thinking to myself.

– You liked her, you moron! Jumped Moon. Why did you let her go?

– It was a long story. Yes, I did like her, but from liking her to wanting to keep her as a partner it was a long road..

Mind you, when I met her, she gave me the impression that I was the Sun for her, she didn’t have a job and she was a bit of a mess in her emotional life also. It was too much responsibility, I couldn’t bear the risk of making her dependent on me, so I had to be very careful at interacting with her, not to give her too much and to make her suffer even more. She had to fix her own life alone, at first, which would raise her self-confidence.

As the months and the years passed by, she did start to improve her life and I remember one time when I saw her at a lecture, it was about one year after that audition, I was very impressed with how much she had improved her attitude, her confidence and her looks, that it felt safe even to go to her directly and tell her “Congratulations”.

At that time I had already met you, Moon, so I decided to play safe and let her in peace.

And T.H.M. goes Romanian, for making a.. warmer point

Looking at the back of his right palm and his big fingers, roughed by the passing of time, as he was supporting himself next to her desk, Moon, slowly trying to stand up from her chair she told him something that supposed to have been a secret until that time, as if she had never said that before to him, more so, admitting it to herself.

She was nervous, shy, yet daring. She felt relieved after she said it, simple, with a soft girly voice: Te iubesc. She moved her eyes up, scanning his face now, anxiously waiting for his comeback.

– Stii cum se numeste un sertar care nu are niciun buton de deschidere atasat la el?, fuse replica mult asteptata a lui Jason.

– Pai… ferecat?!

– Exact. Exact asa ca buzele mele in acest moment, pentru tine.

Si totusi Moon nu dadea semne ca se simte prost de refuzul lui, pentru ca nu a interpretat reactia lui ca pe un refuz categoric. A interpretat-o tocmai ca pe o sansa de a descoperi acel buton… magic. Pierduta in reveria ei, fuse distrasa de inca o replica a lui Jason, care o surprinse chiar mai mult decat prima:

– Stii ca toate astea se pot controla, nu? Impulsurile tale, astea cu tente indecente. Stii, pe cand aveam vreo 30 de ani, am avut o relatie de 5 ani cu o tipa care era cu 10 ani mai tanara decat mine. A trebuit sa o invat foarte multe, tare zvapaiata mai era.

– Tu? Tu ai avut o relatie de 5 ani, inainte sa fii cu mine? Cand?!

(Veti afla imediat ce voi visa episodul urmator. Sau anterior. :D)

Nothing else to say – T.H.M – pre-Chapter VII

As Moon was working on some excel sheet at her desk of massive walnut wood, she noticed there was something wrong with the sheet.. the columns and the rows were not as they supposed to be.

For example, when you had selected a straight row, you would notice the selected cells do not belong to the same row, as if you had selected A3, B5, C4 or something..

So she asked for help. Jason was in the same room, somewhere in the left side of her visual field. He came and he sat on her right side, covering her left shoulder with his arm, and they were trying to fix the problem.

It was evening, dim light, very intimate atmosphere. When she felt his arm, she caught his palm with her left hand, and holding it tight, she leaned with her face on the right side, gazing at him. And when he slowly touched her lips with his, she felt life also in her right arm, which was moving up, fondling the pulp of his left leg, feeling the beginning of his shorts. As they were kissing, at one point he asked her:

– So, do you want to have sex?

– Jason… I’m in love with you, I’m obsessed with you, there isn’t something else in this world that I’d wish more to do. But I don’t want to be just a 3 minutes distraction in some random night of your life. I need more. I deserve more. You can definitely come back to me when you are willing to commit more.

This is what Moon was remembering today while she was breastfeeding Lia, while Josie was spending some quality time with her dad, in the park, just in front of her. She was noticing his hair and the lines on his forehead.. he aged so much. They both did.

Chapter VII

With the same dad – T.H.M – Chapter VII

Ok, I hope you didn’t forget about Moon and Meredith… And Jason and Josie. I just received some more creative energy from the stars :)) And they told me that the father of both Moon’s and Meredith’s baby is Jason. How was this possible?

Well.. Moon was already pregnant when she died in the metro crash in London. And when I resurrected her she came back exactly the same way as she left, no years have passed for her in the meanwhile. Meredith, on the other side, she met Jason long after Moon died and they fell in love and.. they got pregnant.

But some time has passed since I resurrected Moon, it’s now year 2020. Moon had another girl, Lia, and Meredith had a boy, Michael.

So this is how Jason ended up having 3 kids, while paying alimony to 2 of them. The interesting part is that he still lives with Meredith. And with their son. And Josie went to live with her Mom and her younger sister.

How is Moon taking care of 2 girls alone? Josie Sane, 7 years old now and Lia Delight, 1 and 1/2. Well, she is not really alone, because when she came back from the dead she brought some angels with her that are taking some of the responsibilities of watching over the girls. This is one of the reasons while Jason couldn’t get back together with her.

But we don’t care anymore about Jason and Meredith and their offspring, now the story will follow mainly Josie, Lia and the angels. Stay tuned!

Josie and Jason – talk about love

– Daddy, what is love?

– Well, my dear Josephine… Love is… here is an example, so you’ll understand it at your age level: love is when you see one of your kindergarden mates with unfastened shoe laces and you get under the table.  And he will expect you will tie them to the table leg or something, to prank him, but you got there just to tie them properly back together.
Imagine the expression of his face when he will see you actually helped him.

Or when you make someone an exceptional surprise by buying him a plane ticket to experience travelling just by himself to a new country/city, just on an impulse, without thinking too much about it, because you knew how self-rewarding that is to travel and to explore alone the new places and yourself in a new place… and you really wished that for him to experience, out of pure unconditional care. But him, he freaks out from too much freedom and he tries to convince himself that he was the one that didn’t want to invite you, in the first place.

– What? Dad, you lost me here.

– I’m sorry honey, I got side-tracked by memories… 😀

Just dreams

23rd Rainy Road, London.. February 14th, 2017, a soft woman’s voice singing the chorus of the song “All of the stars”..

– Mommy, you are the best singer in the world!

And then the little girl opens her eyes, looks around and suddenly starts crying..

-Mommy? Mommy? Where are you?

Ruffus starts to bark and Jason rushes in the room only with the trousers of the pajama. Shy, through the right side of the room door apears a lovely woman dressed only with Jason’s pajama shirt..

Josie looks right through her father and with tears in her eyes and hiccuping says:

– Meredith! Where is my mommy? She was just here.. She was singing to me…

Ruffus jumps over her in bed and starts licking the tears out of her cheeks.

And this is the moment when Meredith finally understood how it was possible for Josephine to still see and talk with her mom, because being in shock the little girl was not able to make the difference between dreams and real memories.

In her sessions with Meredith she was describing her encounters with Moon with such an incredible amount of details that the doctor couldn’t believe she was able to dream so vividly at such joung age.

Apparently it was needed for Meredith to finally dare to occupy the space of her mom, for the little girl to break into her delusion. And this time Meredith stopped feeling guilty for replacing her mom, as Moon may forever live this way in the girl’s dreams and there was nothing wrong with that, as long as Josie was aware that “her dreams” was the only place where her mom may still live.

Josie and Meredith

Chapter V – part III

It was January 28th, 2016 when Jason realized he has to do something with Josie, as he started to be worried she cannot cope with her mother’s death, since she was still claiming she talks with her.

So he decided to take her to see a pediatrician, even better, a doctor specialized in children psychiatry. And guess what, the doctor was a beautiful woman, called Meredith.

The funny thing was that Meredith was interested also in astrology, as a hobby. And in the day she met Josie and Jason she was expecting something significant to happen in her life, as Juno conjunct Mars was transiting her natal Juno conjunct Venus.

Deep down inside she knew Jason will turn out to be more than just the father of her patient. The problem is that she couldn’t tell him this.. at least not until some years will have passed since the death of his wife Moon.

But wait, she doesn’t know yet anything about this man who walked in her consultation room, holding in his arms this beautiful little curled blond girl.


Josephine and London

As in “The Healing Moon – Chapter V – part II”.

Where were we? Yes, at Josie. Josephine Sane, the daughter of Moon and Jason. Josie just turned 3, today. She is born February 3rd 2013.

Josie, Moon and Jason now live in London, at 23rd Rainy Road.

You see… just after Moon married Jason, in early 2012, she received an offer through Linkedin, to work as Financial Reporting Specialist to a bank in London. And Jason loved her so much that he couldn’t say no and they flew there together. One year later, Josie arrived.

We don’t know what Jason does for a living and we don’t really care, as long as he is a loving father. Josie and he, will be returning to Bucharest, somewhere in 2018… but so much will happen until then…

Josie loves her doggy ‘uffus very much. She is playing with him, lifting his ears up, and shouts around the house: “daddy, daddy, look, I have a bunny.. a bunny that balks”. She meant barks. She received the dog as Christmas present from her dad.

Why? Because Moon is actually dead. She died in a tube crash, on December 14th, 2015. There was all over the news, it wasn’t terrorism or anything, it was just a normal train which derailed from the tracks. She was the only one who died actually, just because she was reading a book, in the way home from work, and she didn’t have time to grab herself properly when the train literally rolled over in the tunnel..

Josie didn’t understand what happened to her mommy, just a couple of months ago. She pretends she still sees her and talks with her when no one is around. We don’t know if this is because London or because Josephine.